be care full with enlightenment:
see the ego is the stuart of the body, like ID for light body, so when the light body enlightens the egobody the ego can begin to see this, it then can reach a point it has with me, where it wants constantly its own death.. because it feels useless and/or realizes it is not in charge anymore. "i want to kill myself"
This can be most dangerous, and is also speaking volumes for skitzophrenia. This state is the bi-polar state of higher self and lower self realizing themselves. The voices in the head are because once in a much more open state, 'enlightened' u can begint o realize what terrence mckenna once realized in his time wave zero talk, 'these are not your thoughts, these r the thoughts, of the gaian matrix as these waves impinge and mesh'. In an open state like this, it is different because u r used to identifying as your thoughts, u made it u thought it etc, but in the open state u begin to find that sometimes very difficult, so one can become increasingly dissolutioned and disheartened as to who really is in control so to speak, couple this skitzophrenic style with how u have become more conscious and so hence can no longer unconsciously roll with things say un-ethical etc etc, and it really can become hard.. "no coming to consciousness without pain"~carl jung, see he knew too..
or one could perhaps learn to see... just the beauty..
~benjamin couwenberg 27/12/2013
see the ego is the stuart of the body, like ID for light body, so when the light body enlightens the egobody the ego can begin to see this, it then can reach a point it has with me, where it wants constantly its own death.. because it feels useless and/or realizes it is not in charge anymore. "i want to kill myself"
This can be most dangerous, and is also speaking volumes for skitzophrenia. This state is the bi-polar state of higher self and lower self realizing themselves. The voices in the head are because once in a much more open state, 'enlightened' u can begint o realize what terrence mckenna once realized in his time wave zero talk, 'these are not your thoughts, these r the thoughts, of the gaian matrix as these waves impinge and mesh'. In an open state like this, it is different because u r used to identifying as your thoughts, u made it u thought it etc, but in the open state u begin to find that sometimes very difficult, so one can become increasingly dissolutioned and disheartened as to who really is in control so to speak, couple this skitzophrenic style with how u have become more conscious and so hence can no longer unconsciously roll with things say un-ethical etc etc, and it really can become hard.. "no coming to consciousness without pain"~carl jung, see he knew too..
or one could perhaps learn to see... just the beauty..
~benjamin couwenberg 27/12/2013
"Spiritual development requires the freedom to connect with different parts of reality in order to understand them more fully. The more you're able to explore, the more connections you can form, and the greater your spiritual growth will be. When you feel a strong desire to connect with something in your reality, listen to your intuitive guidance, and make the connection."
~Steve Pavlina
~Steve Pavlina
The Essene Goddess embodies nature and teaches us how to live in harmony with the earth. The Essenes portray her with the elements personified as four angels (earth, air, fire, water) plus two companions named Joy and Life, all helping the Earthly Mother in her work
“See the eternal garden of wonders, and at its center the Tree of Life, mystery of mysteries, growing everlasting branches for eternal planting, to sink their roots into the stream of life from an eternal source.” Essene Gospel of Peace, Book Four. http://journeyingtothegoddess.wordpress.com/2012/01/23/the-earthly-mother/ Someone asked, ‘Am I there?' and 'am I getting there?' Who is this being that you are assigning the 'I' to? When you ask, 'Am I there? How will I know?' it is as though the ego hopes to one day be enlightened. What else would care whether you are 'there' or not?
That which is not enlightened will never be enlightened. That which will ever be enlightened is already enlightened. Enlightenment is not something you can comprehend with the mind, because such a state goes beyond the mind. You also cannot get there through stressful struggle, because where you are going is where you started out from. Someone else asked, 'Is the state of ananda (bliss) something we are aware of through the physical sensations?’ Physical sensations alone are too dense to experience bliss or ananda. Bliss is not an emotion, and has no polar opposite. It is part of our Being and is never absent. The only thing that might be absent is our awareness of it. It can be experienced during any physical or emotional state. It is best experienced as an exalted state of well-being. It doesn't require any effort to experience bliss. Your true and eternal nature is already blissful, so it's only a matter of tuning into what is always already true. You are simply a bit caught in the mind, which is pretty much like everyone else. If you could truly get into the space between thoughts, wherein you experience the Universal instead of the individual, you would discover that bliss is already present. As long as you are trying to attain something that you don't already have, that very effort will be your primary obstacle At times.. along the journey they seem to have entitled "enlightenment" ,
u may feel like u r loosing yourself.. let yourself go :* ~ben couwenberg |
"I cannot now recall whether the revelation came suddenly or gradually; I only remember finding myself in the very midst of those wonderful moments, beholding life for the first time in all its young intoxication of loveliness, in its unspeakable joy, beauty, and importance. I cannot say exactly what the mysterious change was. I saw no new thing, but I saw all the usual things in a miraculous new light
wake up if u think u run the show.
learn what a femto second is, then realize there are femto cycles your brain isnt 'consciously' comprehending. the brain processes upwards of 4 billion bits per second but u r only aware of about 2000 of those. u ego..ah im over it its so obvious its all perfect and always as it should be, too intricate i tellsya and neuroscience begins to back 'no free will' via recorded experimentation even now.http://www.consciousazine.com/neuro-science-mania-man.html. an then i just realize iv seen ppl in my third eye b4 standing in their house months later an that in this way we're attracted from the future not pushed from the past (http://bensnotes.weebly.com/...) an look people.. egos.. whos embedded whence? u r in endless cycles not the other way around cycles embedded in "you" (please define since u borrow even your motabolisms energy from the sun) shall i keep going? oh wait i did, here> www.consciousazine.com Due to the light of your own Satsang(highest truth), mind may be bringing every demon from hell to stop you from going through the gate to nirvana.
Don't worry. Everyone who has found freedom experienced this. God is with you. There is a passage in the Bible. In the psalms of David it says: 'Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me.' Your attitude should be to offer everything up to the heart of life, to God, to the inmost being and to hold firm in your resolve for Truth. This is a mighty existence. Your spirit is mighty. It will transcend everything. Rumi a great saint once said: 'Whoever brought me here must take me home.' Trust this! ~ Mooji Russia, October 2013 www.mooji.org |
and i get angry at my father
for not help me in this world fucking not much!
and i tell him i dis own ur shit name and if u want to call urself my family then act like it!
fuck! they told me i was surprise ! (my mum said she couldnt have babies they tried, then i came as surprise) yes i am surprise on this world surprise mother fuckers!!!!!!! shine on your unconsciousness! star seeded here I was.
>do it all yourself he said along time ago
but im sick of it, expecially in this state! (enlightened enough to see enough)
Verónica Zumpanoi think people cant understand ur mission. I understood it from the beginning I'm sure..but they are not able to see...
Ben Couwenberg" >sure i can get job (actually that vibration send me crazy so i cant actually - its a figure of speech because im more than capabe but the jealousy against a golden aura is immense it seems to be a magnet for sneers from organic soul less portals, monkeys about everywhere) and be societal stooge then what?? i forfiet my whole soulmind and my whole reason for being!!!!!!!! i rather kill the body than do this so they (the black alliance of non sighters) cant use it (my body) as a means to their ends! (i find it incredible that some people even want to put me there, then u shown me u cant see me at all and cant see shit in general!~u dont put a shaman in a community job O.o idiots.. go back to life school)
WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
for not help me in this world fucking not much!
and i tell him i dis own ur shit name and if u want to call urself my family then act like it!
fuck! they told me i was surprise ! (my mum said she couldnt have babies they tried, then i came as surprise) yes i am surprise on this world surprise mother fuckers!!!!!!! shine on your unconsciousness! star seeded here I was.
>do it all yourself he said along time ago
but im sick of it, expecially in this state! (enlightened enough to see enough)
Verónica Zumpanoi think people cant understand ur mission. I understood it from the beginning I'm sure..but they are not able to see...
Ben Couwenberg" >sure i can get job (actually that vibration send me crazy so i cant actually - its a figure of speech because im more than capabe but the jealousy against a golden aura is immense it seems to be a magnet for sneers from organic soul less portals, monkeys about everywhere) and be societal stooge then what?? i forfiet my whole soulmind and my whole reason for being!!!!!!!! i rather kill the body than do this so they (the black alliance of non sighters) cant use it (my body) as a means to their ends! (i find it incredible that some people even want to put me there, then u shown me u cant see me at all and cant see shit in general!~u dont put a shaman in a community job O.o idiots.. go back to life school)
WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!